第一次

当你看着我
我没有开口 已被你猜透
还是没把握
还是没有符合你的要求

是我自己想得太多
还是你也在闪躲
如果真的选择是我
我鼓起勇气去接受
不知不觉让视线开始闪烁

哦 第一次我说爱你的时候
呼吸难过 心不停地颤抖
哦 第一次我牵起你的双手
失去方向 不知该往哪儿走

那是一起相爱的理由
那是一起厮守

哦 第一次吻你深深的酒窝
想要清醒 却冲昏了头
哦 第一次你躺在我的胸口
二十四小时没有分开过
那是第一次知道 天长地久


It's so quiet at home now...

Home-feast

Went to COS (Marine Parade) instead of Brighton to accompany my mum.
Thanks to Uncle Vincent.

July brought her Indonesia's hometown food and some of the YAs came to my house for lunch. Wow, my living room can fit in 10 people.
And her dad cooked really well.
Watched "Pay it forward", and chill out awhile.

Hmmm, should i go for a jog now? The weather doesnt look pleasing to me.
Or maybe tomorrow after work...

Thanks Loyalle for the greentea and book for my mum.
You have been a blessing to us =)

Yesterday, i wrote on a postcard.

Playtime

Sent Carolyn off at airport-T3 tis morning with her family, Loyalle, July and Zhiwei.
She's flying off to UK for studies and back in 2 mths. =)
Her family treated us to "Dim Sum" at the food court.

Went to Bethesda Book Ctr with Loyalle, July, Zhiwei and went for mid-lunch.
We had cheesy fries, wedges, xiao long bao, toast bread.

Off to east coast with July, while Loyalle went home to rest and Zhiwei went to watched F1.
Blade for an hour plus and invited July to my place for dinner.
Chill out for awhile before sending July home.
Now i know where is Ulu Pandan. haha

Thanks for the bday celebration and card given from my company and the gifts from my dear friends and July. Most of all, thanks for all the wishes. :D

my wednesday

Had a mini party@ work and birthday outing with Yongqin and Steph at Vivo on wed.
Was treated to a movie (The days) by courtesy of Yongqin.

Went to chalet in the night, watched Steph, Xavier and his friends played MahJong.
Stayed up till 6am.
Send steph to work before gg home to rest.

Bought home b'fast from Tiong Bahru Food Centre.
Slept awhile before having a quick run at east coast and off to chalet again.
Hmm, kind of relaxing, but not to the fullest.Haha. Also dunno why.

Anyway, Thanks for your encouragements for the past few weeks. i just felt you are hiding alot of things from me and doesnt want to express them out, while i kept on loading you with so much worries and probs. I dunno why. You always said you are alrite, but my sixth sense just tells me you aren not... I may be wrong in my guess. But i really hope to hear from you, at least you will feel better. Hiding them inside your heart does hurts. I HOPE you will share more. That's my wish...

Amazing Love

Drove to Mandai Crematorium,
Toa Payoh Hub,
Aljunied HDB Branch,
Royal Sporting Warehouse,
and Home.

Had a quick run...

before heading off to KSC.
Had a short briefing on the projection's operation at Bighton Training Centre.
Finally a church office =))
Everyone's so excited.

Took a ride home from Huiping's car...

=)

someone asked me to blog, but i was speechless.
so decided to upload some pics. Lols.

天堂

Does anyone knows the telephone no. to Heaven?
I would like to make a call...

谁有天堂的号码？。。。

...

i guess most of you knew what has happened for the past few days.
yes, i am afraid.
I am still quite shocked by it, though we are mentally prepared.
I knew the path ahead of me will be tough, it will be difficult...
Just read the "words" he wrote on his notebook,
he was suffering from so much pain but we really did not know how to help him.
His pain is so indescribable to us.
But at least, he's free from all pain and is with the Lord now.
He's in the wonderful place where everyone wants to go - and that's HEAVEN

I told myself not to fear.
But as a human, you somehow will still fear de.

Give thanks to the relatives, Brighton pple, my colleagues and friends who came to the wake.
Specially thanks to Pastor Tiak, Pastor Ding, Eugene, Xiang xiang, Sheila, Tzining, Ruoning and Xavier who helped out in one way or another.

I will need some time to chill out,

I don't want to be left alone.
I am still afraid after what has happened...
Sorry, i am still very very down....
I hope you all are not affected by me.

baby oreo

Awoken by smses by dear jo and stephie.
After reading it, i was kinda awake le.
Guess wad???

Jo was alr in the hospital and she's delivering at 7am.
I looked at the time, and it was alr 6.11am.
49 mins to go...
lol.
said a quick prayer to bless both mum and daughter.
I've yet to know baby oreo's name lol. Haha

Didnt get to visit them cus i have to go sgh. Hai.
It's alrite.
I shall visit u when i am more free.
But anyway, stephie MMS me..=)




Took 1.5 days (wed and thur) leave next week for a break...

Stronger?

I know these two months have been tough for me and my family.
Many things are happening beside family matters.
Yes, i agreed....
It was tough, and i'm not sure how i've managed it between work, church, family and friends.
Many pple said i have grown stronger in faith, character, inside and outside.
I dunno if it's the truth,
cuz i couldnt feel anything,
and i didnt have the time to think through.

I dun even know my future.
All i can think of is to move on...
Day by day, hours by hours, minutes by minutes.

All i want is my dad to be happy and to be hopeful.
I always hope for miracles.
Yes! I always.....
Was sharing with someone about my experience with miracles and healings when i was in udon thani years back.
I long-ed to go for mission trip, but not at this moment....


Holding back my tears cuz i shld not shed yet.
C'mon, it's isnt the end of the world!
When there's tomorrow, it means there is hope.
Believe it, and it will come.
I awaits for that day.

my life.

Rollerblading on wednesday after work was fun.
Choco lime sweets made from england was nice.
And lovely encouragement card from YA's made my day. =)
I love u guys.

Thanks

This week was quite hectic for me.
But managed to go for a jog on friday.

Flyer boy is finally on tekong soil. Haha.
First day was relaxing, but second day was like......
Sorry, i couldnt call you cus i was really busy.
1 more week to go, Jiayou, before we all can meet!
Shall ask eunice along. HAHA, and we shall appreciate your new haircut. Hehs

I'm so so excited about Jo's baby this week or maybe next!
Gosh, finally we can see Baby Oreo...
Cant wait to carry her!
I'll pray for smooth delivery for you, Jo.
And will try my best to visit you on friday. =)
Take care.

Really give thanks to my friends and relatives for their encouragements.
Your encouragements, prayers and visits have brightened up our days. Appreciate for what you all have done.

Xie Xie everyone
=)

Flyer boy

Prompt reply from the flyer boy... Lol

janice is bored at work! takeover takeover my workload la, haha

talktime is chargable at 3 cents per seconds, imma get free talktime lol

our flyer boy will be leaving for brother's Island this friday. im management suppt. officer not flyer boy orh!~

tomorrow will be his last day in SII. certainly not the last of me

plusNo more b'fast delivery after tomorrow. you will be in my thoughts, oooh breakfast!

hope you enjoy your free resort, free training, etc...i will complain to you when i don't like it


Oh my,
Back in hospital again...

Stomper

I'm bored at work, finally...
haha.
Been browsing the STOMP website these few days,
looking at the updated news in singapore.
So ask me, and i will tell u what's the lastest news in S'pore =)
And Janice's talktime is chargable at 3 cents per seconds.
See, it's even cheaper than all Telcos.

Haha, Jason was out distributing flyers just now.
Oooh, our flyer boy will be leaving for Brother's Island this friday.
Tomorrow will be his last day in SII.
Plus
No more b'fast delivery after tomorrow. ="(
Anyway, hope you enjoy your free resort, free training, etc...
=))

Time to knock off.. Yay!!!

Beancurd

Can someone brighten up my day again?
Can someone listen to me?
Can someone talk to me?

Headed off to Geyang for Rochor Beancurd after work with Ruoning and Tzining ytd.
I'm with the "Nings" again.
Had beancurd, you tiao and egg tart.
.
.
.
But i still feel something's missing in me.
Having chest and back pain now.
Time to rest, ms jovial...
I'd better skip jogging for today =(

Morning :)

GOOD MORNING ! :)

His Creation

Dearest stephie is always dere whenever i needs her.
she's so dear to me.. love you, sweet heart!

Met her around late afternoon.
Was supposed to meet at 2.30pm, as usual, we delayed and ended up meeting at 4.30pm.
Fwahahaha.
Went to meet yongqin at raffles city's Sushi Tei.
Seeing him @ work was fun.

Went off for shopping and got myself a new pair of specs.
Saw this @ the entrance of suntec.

It seemed fun :)


Bought a new specs to reward myself.
Love the sky- one of God's creation. Took it while i was jogging in ECP.

Oh No! i am so excited for Jo's baby. It's just 2 weeks away.
And i'm 24 hrs on call. Cant wait to see her little darling.

Chatting online with laikwan now. A fun lady whom i knew in M1.
Always forgetful and cute.
After talking for so long, she asked me who am i ... Lols.
And asked me if my nickname was "Hamster".
Omgoodnes.. She's still so Blur lah. HAHA.

my promises

I'm going to attend church weekly.
I'm going to serve in projection team weekly.
I'm going to meet my friends weekly.
I'm going to learn new songs on my guitar
I'm going to read God's words.
I'm going to learn how to love one another.

I promise to help out on the 11 oct's wedding event for projection team.
I promise to go for mr. Burt's chalet on 29th sept.
I promise to be good.
I promise to contribute more in YA.
I promise to pray.
I promise not to leave you alone.

I want to learn sky diving.
I want to learn playing piano.
I want to learn how to rollerblade well.
I want to learn how to stand up.
I want to learn how to climb.
I want to learn how to accept things.

O'Lord, help me. I need wisdom, strength, love....

Relaxation :)

Hooray! I'm gonna meet dearest stephie soon :)
I wanna get a new specs.
Will source for one later.

And July's flying off to her homeland-Medan tonight.
Jus sms-ed her to see if she needs any company to airport.
I wanna give thanks for her encouragements.
I just got to know her better 3 weeks ago and
she's so awesome. A women of God.
Will be praying for u and ur family when u are back in medan.
:D

I feel like going for an overseas trip.
Will be going one on 25th sept- hopefully the weather is good.
But tat's just an offshore trip, not overseas. ='(

I feel like going for a short trip on 27th and 28th.
I shall ask ms stephie later.
Batam, Bintan, Genting????

Wild Live!

Come join us in this fun event-brought to you by Brighton YA :)

Brighter day

Loyalle gave my family a surprise visit this afternoon. Indeed he made our day brighter, besides buying us mooncakes and bread. =)
Thanks alot Loyalle... my treat tml...


Thanks July for her lovely gift. And of course, With God, All Things are possible. Amen!
Have not touched my IPod Nano which was given by standard chartered bank.
Will find some time to input some songs.


Was browsing my cupboard when i came upon 2 bags and 1 box of cards.
It was then i remembered how i survived through all my tough times.
I could still recalled how cards were exchanged weekly to encourage one another- be it in school, camps and youth fellowship.
Those were the best memories i ever kept.
Each time, i read them, it calmed my heart.

Neoprints were another lovely memories.
Seeing how people left and came into my life.
Your names, memories will never be erased from my mind if i were to leave the world one day
You will always be remembered from the day i knew you. =)

Blessed are...

Help me! I'm speechless and dissappointed. =(
I felt so lousy, with no purpose.
So aimless...
Arrggg... Everything failed on me...


I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (Ps 18.1-2)


Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are you when they revile and persecute you, and say all kinds of evil against you falsely for My sake. Rejoice and be exceedingly glad, for great is your reward in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you." (Mt 5.3-12)

O'Lord, grant me strength and wisdom to overcome my weaknessess.
Tomorrow will be a better day, i believe.
Good nites, Holy Spirit!

P.S: I've been "dao" at work the entire day. Sorie about it. I'm not ignoring u all, just dun feel like talking much.

i'm glad

I'm glad my dad finally saw his siblings...not all, but those who were close. It has been years since he last saw them. And i didnt know i have so many young cousins.

Took leave today to do some admin stuffs.
I'm sorry i have to left my work behind.

Thanks CG, my colleagues and friends for their lovely encouragement and concerns.
I'm feeling much better when i saw my dad smile.
I know time is running out and i cant control it.
It's all God's timing.

May God strengthen us in this tough times.

I wont be joining cg and projection team until things are settled down.
It may take weeks.
Hope you guys understand.


I need a rest le. Chest aching :'(

Way back Into Love

I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

[Chorus]
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!

End of chapter

Things were just getting worse each day.
Maybe, being neutral is good.
I hoped it turns out well.

Just heard from my poly friend that he's going for a heart surgery next month.
Another shocking news. Hope everything goes well for him.
I think this is the worst birthday month i have ever encountered.

I wont blame anyone for it...
Maybe it's God's plan and I will learn to accept it.
Yes, I will learn.

A new chaper arose from here =)
I should be contented.
Thank God for this new chapter.

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I'm confused.
God, help me to think properly.
Yes... i'v checked and almost all are negative answers...
How how how???

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